This post is going to be a bit of a rant. I apologize for that in advance, but I just need to get out a couple feelings.
First, a couple things about me. I am not the type of person who likes confrontation. In fact, I hate confrontation. I like people to like me. And usually, confrontation does not lead to people being your #1 fans. HOWEVER, I do find that confrontation is a LOT more useful than talking about someone behind their back. If something is bothering me enough about a girl that I feel the need to tell another person about it in a mean way, chances are a confrontation is necessary. They aren’t fun, but sometimes they’re necessary. Finally, I don’t really like being alone. I like having personal alone time in my room just listening to music or doing art, but when I venture to the dining hall I like a buddy. I’ve never really thought of this as a huge problem. Sure, sometimes I need to be more upfront with people and be more comfortable with standing up for myself, but do I think that the fact that I would prefer to go to the gym with a partner is a large issue that I need to fix? No. I’m a social person. I like people.
Yesterday after going to the gym with a couple of friends, I was informed that one of them had texted another saying “Honestly, we’re nineteen years old. Larkin needs to learn to be a little more independent.” I was shocked. This girl was one of my good friends and, yet, here she was complaining behind my back about how dependent on other people I am.
In a situation like this, deciding what to do is a little bit tricky. I can’t really go up to her and say something, because the reason I know she was complaining about my dependence was via another girl. Currently, I’m just leaning towards ignoring it. I already know of her as a person who talks a lot about people behind their backs, it’s just always a shock to learn that those type of people also talk about you. There are only 11 more days left until I go home and I’d prefer to keep them drama free.
Until next Tuesday!